Repentance through Christ : Isaiah 53

            I have experienced spiritual anguish, this is because of procrastinating the will of the Lord through mundane activities. By reading the talk of President Ezra Taft Benson this line really pricked my heart “Give me a young man who has kept himself morally clean and has faithfully attended his Church meetings.” Regret and guilt are inside me, if only I focused on the things that would benefit my soul and that would make my Father in Heaven happy, If only I pay attention to the whisperings of the Holy Spirit, if only I tried my very best to keep the commandments that the church has taught me maybe now I am already halfway of my mission. I can still remember how our branch president gave me probationary, I felt like I am just a shadow at the corner I cannot participate in the sacrament. I cannot change his decision, I need to face the consequences of my actions, I need to undergo the process of repentance, this way I will have a chance to apply for a mission again.

            I can feel now that gone are those days that I felt so guilty, this is because of the atonement of Jesus Christ. Because of Him I can be forgiven, I can be renewed, and be pure again. His atonement was a ransom for all of us, for us to be able to ask for repentance, and to be able to be with our Father in Heaven.

We can read in Isaiah 53 about the atonement of Jesus Christ;

1 Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?

2 For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.

8 He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.

9 And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.

11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.

12 Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.

 I know in my heart that these things are true, I know that you too can be freed of your spiritual pain. Just kneel and pray and be willing to repent. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.