Finding OK in BrOKen: 3-Minute Blogs for Change

               I have experienced spiritual anguish, this is because of procrastinating the will of the Lord through mundane activities. By reading the talk of President Ezra Taft Benson this line really pricked my heart “Give me a young man who has kept himself morally clean and has faithfully attended his Church meetings.” Regret and guilt are inside me, if only I focused on the things that would benefit my soul and that would make my Father in Heaven happy, If only I pay attention to the whisperings of the Holy Spirit, if only I tried my very best to keep the commandments that the church has taught me maybe now I am already halfway of my mission. I can still remember how our branch president gave me probationary, I felt like I am just a shadow at the corner I cannot participate in the sacrament. I cannot change his decision, I need to face the consequences of my actions, I need to undergo the process of repentance, this way I will have a c...

               I believe in prophets and leaders and revelations they received, but sometimes I doubted them not only the leaders of higher ranking but also local leaders of the church. This doubt has led me not to trust some leaders of the church and at some point, it had affected me in doing my responsibilities as a member such as paying my tithes, fulfilling my callings, and my personal progress. It’s disappointing when you see leaders who are misled by their personal desire. Sometimes I even doubted if our church is a true church of Jesus Christ because of them.   I talk to one of my classmates in the institute about it and she said sometimes it is easier to see mistakes than good works. I sometimes tell people what she said, and I never told it to myself, hearing from a friend those words have galled me in a positive way, it is so strong. It came in my mind that we are not perfect, even the prophet is still only a human and it is ...

There are stages in life to undergo, and the most challenging stage is knowing and accepting ourselves. I've been at that stage where I am surrounded with my personal insecurities, such as my skin color how I wish to be whiter, my height I want to be taller, and I hate my voice the way I speak, it struggles me a lot, people always bully me of the way I speak because I really have that bad sound, they even belittle me of the things that I do and they ignore me and most of them are my relatives, it hurts me a lot they don't know that I am struggling. My confidence was affected a lot, including family problems it really affected me in meeting other people, also my studies. There are times that  I felt like I had no one to share my problems, my feelings, I am so scared to talk, to open up. I am thankful that I had friends during my college who have been there for me, they inspired me, motivated me and shared their time. Because of them, I felt a sense of belongingness, a...